A Struggle



Perinatal  Hospice

Today is a struggle.  It is the anniversary of the death of my best friend's daughter.  She was born with Trisomy 18 and outlived her life expectancy of a few days to almost make it to being a month old.  While I'm sure today is much harder for my friend, her husband, and son, I can only speak from my point of view. 

Last year this time, I was angry.  Angry that such things still happen in our world of modern science.  It was cruel.  I do believe in a supreme being, but I was angry at Him/Her too.  It was a hard anger to let go of, and it took me well into the new year to ease out of it.  This year I'm just sad.  Sad that my friend and her family are hurting and there's nothing I can do to help. 

However, it always reminds me to hug my own daughter.  And to have patience no matter what, because I'm lucky she's here with me every day.